Realistic New Years Resolutions

The year is coming to a close. So what do I do? I reflect. First, I look back on the year and I thank God for all the ways in which He has blessed me. I count my blessings. I praise Him for all the things He has done in and through me. Secondly, I take some time to look at the things I would have liked to do differently. This is the part where it could be easy to get discouraged. This is the reason I think so many people just don’t do New Year’s Resolutions. People often say they never keep them anyways. One reason for that is that we often set the bar too high for ourselves. Setting goals that sound amazing but are really hard to obtain. We put so much pressure on ourselves to meet these goals or else we are deemed a failure. Incapable of reaching the goals we set.

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*This is a quote that I got from Facebook*

Wow, can I relate to that!  That sums it up so perfectly.

I have always made New Year’s Resolutions. I have done it all different ways. Sometimes leaving myself less then challenged while other times leaving myself feeling like I can’t do anything right.

I think that New Year’s Resolutions are important because they challenge me to be the best that I can be. Many times the same ones appear on my list year after year. But that does not mean I failed. Some things are lifelong goals. And year after year if we continue to strive for change, we are inching our way towards it. Most real life change, most change that is worth mentioning, takes time. It is not a makeover occurring from one day to the next. Most change occurs from taking steps every day, year after year.

Here are some examples of goals that you might find on my list of New Year’s Resolutions. Realistic Resolutions. You’ll notice they are not followed by the words “every day”.   Because that is not realistic. I am then setting myself up to fail.

1) Spend more time with the Lord

2) Workout and eat healthy

3) Work on being more patient

4) Learn to relax

5) Live life to the fullest

6) Choose Joy

7) Read more

You get the idea.

Some might ask why I waste my time making goals that just reoccur. Well, for me, it helps me to stay focused on things that are important. It challenges me to continue to seek change. To not become just okay with the way things are but to strive for more than okay. To want lifelong change. To want to better myself. Each year, there are things I look back on that I would like to change. But at the same time there are many things that I look back on and know I worked hard. That I tried. And if I allow it to, each triumph as well as each shortfall in my eyes will make me stronger. Because with each step I take and with each year that goes by, I am striving to be all that God has made me to be.

If I never took the time to set goals, I probably wouldn’t take the time to reflect. And for me, there is so much to be learned from both.

Happy New Year, friends! May this year be a year where we seek to become all we were made to be.



Upside Down & Backwards

Walking upside down and backwards…


What?  Exactly.  But that is how I feel sometimes – I feel like I am going through life upside down and backwards… at least I am mot running in circles.   What brings about these crazy feelings?  Well, I will tell you.  Life.  I was talking to my mother-in-law today and she was saying just how much I do (which is always so nice to hear 🙂  And I realized, yes, I do a lot.  How do I even do it all?  I mean I have two little kiddos that I love to be their mommy and with that comes: I meal plan, grocery shop, cook, clean & then clean right after I already cleaned, do laundry, do more laundry, do more laundry (okay, you get the point), run the kids here and there, change diapers, wipe noses, and to top it all off I home-school (and I am sure I am missing A LOT but you get the idea).  I have heard so many moms say that being a mommy is not for the weak.  Amen to that.  We are tuff.  We are talented.  I mean a person would have to be in order to walk upside down & backwards.  You may be thinking what is with that.  But, it is easy. Sometimes with the demands of life and being a mom, you feel your world has been turned upside down.  At least that is how I feel. Life sometimes gets so crazy that at the end of the day I say, “I did it all but have no idea how”.  But now let me just say…. I would not have it any other way….  I LOVE my life.  I am so blessed.  And if my life means that I have to walk upside down and backwards, well then, I will learn to do it well and enjoy the ride : )  I will count it a blessing that God has given me this life.  And I wouldn’t trade it!





HELLO 2013



I sit here staring out he window wondering where in the world I will get energy… the holidays left me full of sugar and deprived of sleep.  That is not a great combination.  And yet, routine came knocking at my door this morning… I dragged myself out of bed at 5:30 after hearing my alarm go off like 5 times.  I know how good it feels once I am up – it is just remembering that at 5 AM when I hear my alarm.


So, here I am once again trying to get back to a routine.  A routine that has me taking time for God, working out and showering before the kids are up.  A routine that gives me the balance that I need.


2012 brought blessings.  I am so thankful for the many ways that God has blessed us.  I have a wonderful husband who is my best friend.  He is the love of my life and I so enjoy him.  I am blessed to be the mommy of two amazing little girls.  They are just soo much fun and they fill my life up!!! God has blessed us with a home that is more then we dreamed it would be.  With neighbors that are becoming good friends.  And it is closer to many of the things that we do and many of our close friends. Blessed.


2012 brought loss.  We lost my Grandma, Nonnie.  You know, there is really never a good time to let go of someone you love.  Especially before you think it is time.  But, I have seen God.  He has held me.  He has brought healing and strength.


I could say that 2013 I will workout every day, have devotions every day, put a hot meal on the table every night, be a loving and patient mom, love my husband well and be a wonderful friend, etc, etc, etc.  But let me be honest…. those are things that I will try for every day – but they will not happen every day.  And honestly they will rarely happen at all if I rely on my own strength.  Good thing I don’t have to.


So, hello 2013.  What will you bring? Some of it I can not control, nor would I want to.  But there are things that I can… I will continue to work on spending more time with the Lord – knowing Him better.  I will strive to be a good wife to my husband, always lifting him up in prayer, and honoring him.  I will work on being the best mommy that I can be to my sweet, precious girls – always cherishing them, loving them well and showing them Christ.


If there is one thing I was reminded of in 2012 that I will take with me into 2013 it is this:  We never know how long we have.  Nor do we know how long we have with the people around us.  I want to make every minute count.  Because I don’t know how many minutes are left.  But above all, I want to live my life for Christ.


What will I do this year that will make 2013 stand out?


So, here’s to 2013.  May it be a wonderful year.  God bless you!!!  And in the words of my 2 year old Aleah, “CHEERS”.



Sitting. Thinking.

I have not blogged in quite some time…


I miss my Grandma.  A lot.  And although I am so thankful for the legacy of faith she has left, I feel  like I am missing out.  On time with her.  Of her being in the girls lives longer.  Grief is a crazy thing you know… it takes you all over the place.  One minute your sad, the next mad and the list goes on.  It even took me back to that place inside where I still hold my baby girl.  And it made me miss her again.  She shares my Grandmas middle name.  The path of grief that I am walking from the loss of my Nonnie is a path I am too familiar with.  One I have never wanted to visit again.  And yet, here I am walking it once more.  And it hurts. Such is life.  We lose people.  I know that.  But I don’t at all have to like it.  I just dislike losing someone before I feel its time.  And yet, maybe I would never feel it was time.


So why have I not written?  I have been keeping myself busy so that I don’t have to think about it.  But today, I decided to sit down and think.  And this is what came of it.   I guess it is just one of those days.  God brings about these days to bring healing and so that I know He is near.  I am so thankful for that.


Thanks for listening,




Life is changing my friends – always changing.  When I am in the middle of a lot of changes it rocks my world.  I have been so eager to get back into routine because I work well that way.  But let me just say that this September brought on a lot of new things for me.  A lot.  God revealed that He does not want us to do foster care again.  That is something I am still trying to adjust to even though I know it is God’s will – and truly I am okay with it.


And then there is my 5 year old.  This age is so fun because she has so many interests.  It is also so busy because she has so many interests.  And adjusting to a good homeschool routine is something new.  Did you know that just because we choose to homeschool, it does not mean that I will have more time in the day?  Huh!  Seems a bit crazy to me.  But, I love it and I would not trade it for more time.  It has just taken some adjusting.


I gotta fit it all in… and on top of it I am getting up at 5 again to workout and have devotions and shower.  So, by 10pm, I am ready for bed – I mean by 10 it really feels like 12.


What is the point of this blog?  You know,  I am not sure except I think to just get it all out.  I am the type of person that always stays one step ahead.  But, lately, I seem to be a step behind.  I want to to get ahead again… I think I will. It will just take some time.  Or maybe I am entering another phase of life where I am just going to be 1 step behind – no, that couldn’t be….


I just have a lot on my plate right now.  I have to figure out how to prioritize – and juggle : )


I miss blogging.  I miss taking some time to sit and write.  Do you remember my blog post a few (probably months back, considering I have been a blogging slacker) when I talked about sitting still?  Yah – I think that I need to to go back and read that again.  Yes, I do.  So, I am going to try and have a healthy balance in life.  I think, no, I know it is really important.


I rambled a lot… I feel better though…. Thanks for listening!



Sit Still

Sit still.

Do what?  Like, how still?

Many of you may think I am talking to my children – but oh no… this blog is for me.

My husband walked in and looked at me and paused…. and our interaction went like this:

Me: I am just going to sit here for a minute and chill.

Him: WOW!  Really?  I don’t believe it

5 minutes later he came in and I was up doing stuff:

Him: I thought that you were going to chill….

Me:  I did!

Him:  That is what I thought…

Me (not out loud of course but in my head)  Hmmmm….. Good point!

You see, I am a busy bee. I like to be on the move.  I have a need to be on the move.  I don’t sit still – ever really.  And even when I am sitting still, I am not very still for very long.

Another conversation:

Hailey does not take naps anymore… except today.

I text Aaron:

Me:  Both girls are sleeping….

Him:  Do you even know what to do? : )

Me: No!

What is the point of this blog post?  Easy – to remind me to try and learn how to sit still.  It is good for me.  So, every day during the kids nap and quiet time, I sit still for at least 30 minutes. Crazy is what it is… I think I need a booster seat that I am strapped in to with a 30 minute timer so that I can’t move until it goes off – yah kinda weird…. but anyways, I have actually come to enjoy sitting – still even.  I write.  I email.  I read the bible. Sometimes I sit for a moment and do nothing just listening to the sound of nothing (yah- that is a whole other blog post).  But I just sit and let my “to do list”  wait till I am done.   Now – as the move gets closer someone check in to make sure I am still chillin for that 30 minutes a day.  I need accountability so that the busy little bee in me keeps up with this good habit.  I feel refreshed when I do.  It is, well, just nice!


Lovin Life

Hailey has VBS (Vacation Bible School) this week.  Can I tell you how awesome it is to watch a room full of kids loving life? Praising Jesus.  Singing.  Dancing. You can’t help but smile!


My two little girls inspire me to look at life differently.  Sure, they don’t know the hardships of life like we do – but in the midst of life, we can learn to enjoy it.


In the spring every time we pull up to the house Hailey looks to see if a new flower has come up.  When she sees one that has she squeals with delight and we all run over to see it.  Smell it.  Examine it’s every detail.  I love that Aleah even stops to do the same with weeds (not that I have those at my house).


When there is a bird outside – they sit in the window for a long time and watch it.


We were in bad traffic one day and Hailey said, “Mommy, is everyone stopped so they can enjoy the beautiful view?”  I looked and sure enough, the mountains looked amazing.  My answer, “No, but we should be”.  I don’t usually stop to enjoy the view – take the time out of life’s craziness and enjoy the little things – at least not as much as I should.


I love to sit on the floor with my children and watch their creativity as they play.  Help them learn and explore new things.  We love to turn on a CD and have a dance party.  That has got to be one of my favorite things with them… spinning around and around and laughing with all we’ve got. Sometimes we laugh so hard, we cry!


I love to go on nature hikes with the girls… see how they look at things with awe – dirt, flowers, rocks, trees, birds, ants.  Aleah, when we were camping, sorted rocks for like 30 minutes.  She loved it.


I love to watch their little faces when their Daddy comes home – they drop everything and run to him with open arms.


I love the way children enjoy books – they take in every word and even add their own.


I need to take a lesson from my children on how to love and enjoy all the things around me.  I need to stop once in awhile and look at the world through their eyes  – I learn a lot when I do – and I smile a lot when I do!


Thank you sweet girls, for teaching mommy how to love life like you do!  And for giving me constant reminders when I forget how!