Sitting. Thinking.

I have not blogged in quite some time…

 

I miss my Grandma.  A lot.  And although I am so thankful for the legacy of faith she has left, I feel  like I am missing out.  On time with her.  Of her being in the girls lives longer.  Grief is a crazy thing you know… it takes you all over the place.  One minute your sad, the next mad and the list goes on.  It even took me back to that place inside where I still hold my baby girl.  And it made me miss her again.  She shares my Grandmas middle name.  The path of grief that I am walking from the loss of my Nonnie is a path I am too familiar with.  One I have never wanted to visit again.  And yet, here I am walking it once more.  And it hurts. Such is life.  We lose people.  I know that.  But I don’t at all have to like it.  I just dislike losing someone before I feel its time.  And yet, maybe I would never feel it was time.

 

So why have I not written?  I have been keeping myself busy so that I don’t have to think about it.  But today, I decided to sit down and think.  And this is what came of it.   I guess it is just one of those days.  God brings about these days to bring healing and so that I know He is near.  I am so thankful for that.

 

Thanks for listening,

 

~Kristen  

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