Don’t wait to live until it’s time to die

Yah, that’s powerful. And in that powerful statement is motivation. Motivation to live for today. To make the most out of this life that God has given me. So many times I have said, “I will do this or that once I’m not so busy”. Well, guess what, that time never came. There are not really many times in life where we aren’t busy. But what it comes down to is making time for what is really important.

My grandma, Nonnie, has been with Jesus for two years now as of yesterday. I miss her dearly. I always will. She is a remarkable women. She spent her days giving to people. She did after school programs at local schools where she dedicated herself to teaching them about Jesus and how much He loves them. Her impact was huge. Her love for others was impactful and beautiful. She will always be remembered as a wonderful, sweet women who gave her time and her heart to bring glory to God.

Im also reflecting today on someone we just discovered has cancer. And it doesn’t look good (not that any cancer does, but you know what I mean). She is my age and a mother of two. That rocks my world. I can’t even think about it without tears welling up. She’s a mom of two young children. And her life just took a dramatic turn. I can only imagine. My heart breaks for her.

These two women that I write about today challenge me. Without even knowing they do. I want to make a big impact for Christ. I want to be used by Him. I want my life to have meaning and purpose. I don’t know what my life holds. Only God does. But I don’t want to wake up one day and realize I didn’t give this life everything I’ve got. That I allowed myself to become too busy with stuff.

I want to live today. I want God to use me today. I want to be a good wife and mother today. I want to be a good friend today. I want to enjoy and appreciate my life today.

How much different will my life look as I start to practice living life to its fullest today. I don’t want to wait until it’s time to die. Because then I won’t have enough time to be the person God made me. And do the things He designed me to do.

How are some ways you live life to its fullest? What are some challenges you face?


Soul Searching

God is doing a work in me. That is both wonderful and hard all at the same time. I am willing. But having said that the moving is sometimes hard. The heart is quick to say yes to The Lord but the head does too much analyzing, thinking about it. I feel that The Lord wants me to blog. No, let me rephrase that, I know He does. Why? Yah, I don’t know. But I do know I am only responsible to be obedient, not to figure out why. My head wants to make sure it’s Gods will, figure out why it’s Gods will, etc. However, my heart, which has faith, is just ready to give it all I got. (And let’s just say that faith is not flawless. And it has come with many refining trials. But more on that later.)

I’ve written about life being chaotic lately. And it has felt that way. But some of that is because I feel chaotic on the inside. I’m starting to believe that is because I’m torn between my heart and my head. Sounds strange when said that way. However, I’m a thinker and a feeler. So there are times I have to keep all that in check so that doesn’t get in the way of what God wants from me. That my fiends, is where soul searching comes in. I have been on my knees before The Lord asking Him to have His will be done in my life. That I will just let go and let it be. That I will grab on and embrace everything God is doing. That I will embrace all of who He has designed me to be.

Are you doing any soul searching? What are some ways you grab on and embrace what God is going?


Be still

I have never been one to be still. Ever. I swear I have springs in my rear. It’s a thing. It’s gotta be. That is the only explanation for why I’m always on the move.

I have a lot of energy. I like to move. Plus, I have a lot to do. I am one busy little mama. I usually always have a list a mile long. It’s hard to stop me.

Psalm 46:10 says “Be still, and know that I am God.”

Psalm 62:5 “Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him.”

Matthew 11:28 ” Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

These verses show me that the springs in my rear are self made. God did not design me to go go go. There is a time for it. The energy I have is from Him. But his intention is that I balance it with rest. When I am still, I can hear Him. He gives me hope, peace and rest. When I take time to be still I am able to use my time more wisely. Because I am refreshed.

So many times when life gets crazy I move faster. When what I should be doing is slowing down. I should go to The Lord. Take time to be in His presence. To rest. When I rest in The Lord I find I have much more energy and direction when it comes to dealing with the crazy.

I’m sure you’ve noticed that I have had a lot of blog posts about rest, being busy and anything else along those lines. That is an area in my life that I need to grow. I need to let go of some of my to do list in order to find rest in The Lord. Time to restore. I’m no good to those around me if I’m frazzled all the time.

This world that we live in is so fast paced. The demands of life are so vast. All the more reason to slow down, take time to rest, let go and let God have control of our lives. He will guide us. Give us everything we need. But we must go to Him. Make time for Him. Bask in his very presence. Now I need to put all that into practice. Make some new habits. Ask God to help me sit still once in awhile.

Do you take time to be still? Time to rest? Is it hard for you to make time for it?


Lord, I need You

Lord I need you!

I need you to guide me. Direct me. Lord, I feel like your doing a work in me. And two emotions come to mind for me. I’m excited & nervous. Because I know growth and change comes from hard work. Im all about working hard but it’s when the heart is challenged that it gets real hard. And right now I have felt as if I can’t seem to get my head above water. I’m uncomfortable. Stirred up. Wrestles. Lord, I feel that when I try to do something you have clearly called me to, distractions are thrown at me. Life gets busier. And it’s already busy. So busier just means crazy. Help me Lord to put everything aside and make more time for You!

We are here for one reason and that is to bring glory to You. To live for You. To make an impact on this world. Lord, You are bigger then anything I face in this life. And You will give me strength to be everything You call me to be. Lord strengthen me. Give me peace & joy that only come from You. I want my life to have a greater meaning and purpose then I can create. I want it to come from You. Lord, change my heart. Make me more like You. Make me brave and courageous to do what it is You have called me to do.

Thank you Lord for loving me. And for holding my hand through trying & chaotic times. Thank You for molding me and changing my heart. I completely, fully trust You with all that I am. I am willing to do what You call me to do knowing that it probably won’t be easy. Anything worth while usually isn’t.

Lord, I need You!
I love you!


Do you ever feel this way? Like God has called you to do something but life’s distractions keep you from doing it? I’d love to hear from you.

bust busy busy

Life. Life is so busy. Ever feel like you can’t catch your breath because your so busy? But then when you look at your life you feel like there isn’t anything you can give up?

Today is one if those days for me. Okay, to be honest, it’s been that way for several weeks. I’m trying to keep in mind that a new school year has begun. And with that comes more responsibilities and commitments. A lot more in fact.

My mom has always told me that everyone has the same amount of time in the day. We just all choose to use it differently. That statement usually comes as a gentle reminder when I am telling her that I’m too busy to write. Just too busy for certain things I want to do. It makes me stop and ask the question, what am I busy doing? Well, you know, homeschool, laundry, massage just to name a few things. My days fill up. But then if I really give it a lot of thought I can add things like Facebook, planning my life (which needs to be done but perhaps not to the level I do it), and the list of random things can keep going. My point is that I need to be using my time wisely. All of it. And I can tell you that I do not always use my time wisely.

I want to read. I want to blog. I want to spend more time in the word of God. What is stopping me? That is a good question. And it is one I’m going to find the answer to. I’m going to start paying close attention to how I spend my time. Without, of course, spending too much time doing that! :)

I want my time to matter. My days to be productive. I want to have time for what really matters and dismiss the things in life that don’t.

What do you do that helps you manage your time? What are some of the little things that you let go of in order to make more time for the things that really matter?

Lord, I pray that the things I do glorify You. Please help me to use my time wisely. To make time for the things that I should be doing. Help me not to waste time. Guide and direct my days. I want to dedicate each day to You and allow You to be the keeper of my time.

I am busy. That much is true. But I want God to get glory in all that I do. :)


I’m writing again…

I have been an on again off again blogger. I’ve wrestled with wondering if I should even do it. I’m sure I’ve blogged on this subject at some point even because it’s one I’ve wrestled with.

I love to write. I love to be real. But sometimes I have asked myself what the point is to blogging. I honestly feel like The Lord wants me to write. Why? I don’t know.  But for the last six months or so I have been feeling a bit wrestles. Like I’m missing something. And once I started writing again, which was on Kayla’s birthday, I felt like that was the part of my life I had been missing. I stopped writing because writing leaves me vulnerable. It leaves my  life open for others opinions and sometimes ridicule or disagreement. But God has a plan and I know that He will use my writing however He wants. It may be to bring more healing and promote growth in my life. It may be that one person needs to hear what I write. And honestly it would be worth it if it helped, encouraged or motivated one person. It would also be worth it if it strengthened me as a person and challenged me. Maybe it will do both of those things. That would be pretty cool!

The point of this post is for me to continue to process through my thoughts and feelings. To be honest in saying I don’t know why I’m writing. I only know that God wants me to so I am. It’s hard to devote time and energy to something that I’m not completely sure what the point is, but I am certain that it’s worth it. And I know that God has a plan in it. I just have to be faithful.

I have learned over the years not to try and go against Gods plan. Not to run the other way. I still do it, but I eventually find my way back to what it is He wants. Because it is in that exact spot that I find true meaning and purpose.

Thanks for those who listen and encourage me along this journey. Thank you for supporting me as I find out who I am as a writer. And what it is God wants me to write about. I’m so very blessed by you all!


Let them see You in me

There is a song called “Let them see you in me” by Colton Dixon. If you have not heard it, listen to it. Take in all the words. It’s beautiful. It can be applied to so many areas of life. I have applied it to parenting. It’s my theme song as a mom :) Every time I hear the song I am reminded of just how much I desire for my children to see Jesus in me.

My last blog post was a day when parenting was hard. When I felt defeated. But on those days I am always challenged to look inside my own heart. To ask myself if during those hard days my children see Him in me.  I wrote that post because days like that are real. Parenting is not easy.

Lately, I have felt in a bit of a rut. A place where frustration has been my reaction to a hard day. Acting in frustration is acting in such a way that does not show my children the love of Christ. They mess up. They act out. They are children. They are learning. And being molded. The best way I can help mold my children into who The Lord wants them to be is going to be loving them with all my heart. No matter what the day brings. It’s going to mean setting aside myself for the sake of my children. And it is through that I am truly able to teach them how to respond when the day is not going well. How we are to act when we are frustrated. My kids look to me for so many things. For how to respond in most situations. That is so incredibly humbling. It’s a hard job. But it’s also an honor. And it’s a calling that I want to take very seriously.

I pray that as I seek The Lord in my parenting journey that I would be changed. That I would always be teachable. And that God would live in and thorough me. I will never have it down perfectly. But I will never stop trying.  I want what comes out of my mouth and I want my actions to be such that my children see Jesus in me.